I don't know anybody who has ever been healed through Benny Hinn or Reinhard Bonnke, and while I do wish that Mr. Hinn would better protect his integrity, I would no longer dare to say that his ministry is a scam.
As I began to write about the miraculous, I hoped that I might be able to shed some clarity upon the matter... but even re-reading my entries I realize that I merely went on a journey recalling my own doubts and struggles with the matter. And now, all I can do is update the stories that make me wrestle with the matter today...
I've seen the power of God fall, and a man walked off his gout... but a girl with chronic back pain still carries it.
I've felt my husband's dislocated shoulder being restored back to its place after years of pain... but held my friend's hand when the doctors said that 4 hours of intercessory prayer did nothing to ease her brother's severe bronchitis.
I've celebrated with a woman delivered from decades of migraines and they never came back... but mourned with my sister when the "psychological high" of a "faith healing" wore off and her pain came back.
I've heard stories from the greatest skeptics of how they were empowered to heal multitudes while in Ethiopia... but heard stories of the most faithful not even receiving a returned smile from sick children in India.
This is not a new question; "why are some healed while others are not?"
I believe that the answer lies in perspective. I believe that the answer lies in God's desire to heal sicknesses that are deeper than the physical. I believe that the answer lies in waiting for our humanity's poise to receive it. I also believe that the answer might not be as convenient as the beliefs I have just mentioned.
But, I've come to realize that the important thing really is:
I believe
